Hugging the hazy, grayed out version of myself in the fetal position

“Self-loathing is a form of narcissism, which isolates.” -Visa

Me, texting a boy this week while on a walk: “I feel that now you’re not going to actually hear me about any of this because it’s unpleasant and knowing me isn’t worth it to you.”

I almost followed that up with, “And knowing me is worth a little unpleasantness.” But I didn’t. Because I wasn’t…