Absolutely killing it at being sad

TW: Self-harm

My left hand ring finger hurts today because I closed the bathroom door on it last night. I was stone-cold sober and drug-free.

Right after, I remembered the time in SF when I sat up and slammed my face into the wall next to my bed so hard it gave my nose a visible crease that stayed for months.

I’m not a graceful person on the best of days. But when I’m under a lot of stress, I’ve noticed that I accidentally hurt myself more severely. If I remember correctly, I did the bed/nose thing around the same time I got the closest I’ve ever been to wanting to kms.